DISPENSABLE

DISPENSABLE

dis·pens·a·ble (d-spns-bl)
adj.
1. Not essential; unimportant: dispensable items of personal property.


I really hate the feeling of being taken for granted. I'm the kind of person who can tolerate much pain. I'm pretty flexible... But not everybody knows, that no matter how much flexible you are .. You can still snap.

Why does everybody thinks that whenever they cancel they're plan for the day,that I will cancel mine too , to entertain them. People don't realize that after a whole week of work ...Bryan needs some BRYAN TIME.

They're so self absorbed that they don't care that you have a life and your so stressed about work, family, friends, etc..etc..etc.

They think the world revolves around them...Some people might find that cute but not me. I hate those self absorbed people who thinks only about themselves.. They're so SHALLOW..

I hate SHALLOW people.. Being shallow means you're self absorbed, Self absorption leads to insensitivity, and when you're insensitive you will end up treating everybody around you ...DISPENSABLE.

Too Bad They Dont Exist, Real or Single.

Tired of wanting for something I clearly earned. It should be given to me even if I dont asks for it. The problem is I'm tied to someone who doesn't respect who I am. It's times like this that makes me regret that I used my heart to decide for my brain.

I wonder where the ideal girls went? Like the girls below:


Penelope - Odysseus's loyal wife. She is very loyal to her husband that she finds a way and goes against traditions to wait for her husband who might not come back because he was lost at sea. Well, it paid off and they're reunited..

Chloe Sullivan - Young Clark Kents bestfriend. Even if there's no chance that she and Clark can be together because Lana is in the picture, she didnt do anything to force Clark to be with her instead she just stood in the sidelines waiting for him to notice her supporting him in every step of the way. ( talk about uncoditional love).

Dido - The great queen of Carthage. She loves Aeneas so much. She'd rather die burning in a spire than to see her love walking away. Her undying love pushed to the brink of insanity. ( Next lifetime baby)

I really envy the guys they loved. Those lucky bastards! Why is it they get to feel that much appreciation and loved while some of us do crazy things for love and yet get shit lies and heart breaks in return. All of us should be happy.. I guess some are more luckier... I hate this feeling...


Ever have one of those days
When everything falls apart
And you can't do anything about it.
Then you wish there is SOMEONE
who can make the whole disappear.
I found that someone...
and all she has to do is smile.
-Jeremy Aames
(SVH Senior year)

I wish I'm with my someone too...

Pacifist at Heart

Wow!! Its been awhile since my last blog came out. If I got it right it's been roughly two months since I updated this post. Been busy at home. (not in the mood to elaborate on that)hehehehe.

Two days ago N. Korea threathens to start a nuclear war againt US and S.Korea if the latter wont stop they're naval joint exercises on the Korean peninsula. I hope the world pre-empt this from happening.

Because right now Kim Jong Il is boiling World war 3 here in Asia. I really hate that guy and every communist leaders. They're the ones whose foreign policy is to drag everyone with them in a downward spiral. Why can't he just die in his sleep and save us the trouble of mounting a war against his idiotic ideology.

I wish my own country can influence or do something about this since were practically neighbors with North Korea. I mean how long should we let this regime of death and suffering continue. Lives are wasted.

I hope this wont escalate into a full blown war. We dont need another massacre. I really wish that SEATO wasnt disbanded. Maybe if they put theyre own interests aside we can help to stop this from happening.

I guess Im a pacifist at heart. I dont want anyone getting hurt fighting for peace. (thats beyond idiotic.)

I dont know how to end this post . I didnt even gave this much thought. So I'll just say PRAY FOR PEACE.. Maybe if we pray loud enough somebody up there in cosmic existence ,maybe Allah, Jesus, or Vishnu or whoever really is in charge up there would hear our plea for peace.

Afraid to FADE

Gerascophobia (Greek: gerasco, "I am ageing" and φόβος, phobos, "fear")[1] is an abnormal or persistent fear of growing old or ageing.[2] Gerascophobia is a clinical phobia generally classified under specific phobias, fear of a single specific panic trigger.

Some authors also refer to it as gerontophobia, while others prefer to distinguish the fear/dislike of old age in general and the fear of one's own ageing.[1]

Gerascophobia is based on anxieties of being left alone, of being without resources and of being incapable of caring for oneself.[

Everbody has fears. I have one, in fact I have more than one. but the most I hate is becoming old. Sounds silly huh? but its true. I'm afraid to age. Is that so wrong.

I hate this fear because of all the phobia I have it's the only one that I cant seem to shake. Everytime I'm lying in bed I always space out and imagine me being old. It gives me the creeps. Its like a cold current running thru my spine.

I dont see anything good in aging. For me, It's the dumbest phenomenon in this world. I never want to see myself declining from my youth. I dont want to become helpless. Its better to die young than die of old age.

IT PAYS TO CHECK THE LABEL

This post was inspired by an episode of KYLE XY enjoy.

Everything we do in this world ends up giving us a title. A title sometimes
we can be proud of , or most of the times were ashamed to be associated with. Sometimes we dont even realize that our actions are the basis of this labels.
And society generally take this labels to sum us up as persons as a whole.

Let me elaborate.

Case 1. Rihanna and Chris Brown.

When the scandal between them broke the news, They end up gettting labeled. Rihanna being "THE VICTIM" and Chris being the "BEATER"
Rihanna ended up being more famous overnight while Chris became the most hated man on earth. (Too bad for you)

Case 2. Romeo and Juliet.

This couple ended up having too many labels. The star-crossed lovers, the greatest love story of all time and the greates MORONS in history.
Now, how did that happen? Well, not all we do were taken as they were by this judgemental society. Even if people see how noble your actions are, people will somehow twist things the way they are so you can be some amusement.

Now instead of the star-crossed lovers, they also go by the name of the couple-who-did-not-bother-checking-each-others-pulse-before-drinking-poison. Tsk tsk tsk. Such a waste.

Case 3. Certain devoted lover and cheating girlfriend.

Guy, work his ass off to be a better man for her. while, girlfriend on the other hand goes behind his back to flirt with other guys. What happens to them. She earned the title "CHEATER" and he goes by the name "BETRAYED".

To sum it all, is up to you. I just want to remind you that whatever label you earn in this life will always follow till you die. Because people never forget, and they will never fail to remind us the labels we earned.

Addicted in LOVE

Falling in love is like being an addict. You cant eat , you cant sleep and your always spacing out like your always stoned. ( damn straight!) . You cant do anything right. You feel so high that almost every time your dreaming even if your still awake. ( some people even snores)

The way I see it falling in love is like being addicted to drugs. Let me elaborate .

Sometimes love is like valium, no matter how painful the syringe and needle seems. We just got to have it. Not even bothering about the pain.Teeing your arm with rubber and inserting that needle into your veins. ( ouch!!!)

Sometimes love is like cocaine.. Very expensive. When you love the girl that is shop-a-holic . You feel like you have to buy everything because you know when she is satisfied you're gonna be satisfied. The downside is when you guys broke up your gonna realize that you pocket is empty and your under debt without even knowing where those money have gone.

For me, falling in love is love is like being on crack. Cheap but gives the right booze. hehehehe! Hope you enjoy this mindless post. It took me sometime to make this.

Things you do......

People should realize when they are being pathetic. They should know when to stop humiliating themselves in the eyes of the whole on-line community. In life there's no walls or fences... all choices we make are doomed to bite us in the ass sometime in the future. I'll give you some examples..

Example No.1.

Situation: You post your half naked picture on an on line dating site.

What would you get: Your picture ending up on a blog. That can be seen by the people you love.You ended up hurting them. ( and this was done by someone who is married and has a child.)

Example No 2.

Situation: Lying bout yourself ( for your personal gain.)

What would you get: A possible trial and a failed career. ( you might as well find a new job and identity while waiting for a subpoena).

Example No 3.

Situation: Posting your number on your FB.

What would you get: People would text you non stop. (Of course! what an idiot).



My point is, things you do to upset other people, would only end up hurting yourself...
(Plain and simple) . My advise to you is ditch all your so-called-friends and surround yourself with good people. Don't settle for anything less. One day you'll realize that you spent your life spinning around in circles. Going nowhere fast.... I hate to see you selling yourself short.

Sweet Accidental Vengeance

Its really funny that even if you don't really do anything somehow karma finds a way to get some payback for you from people who do you wrong in the past. I just realized that even if you already forgave the person for what brutal inhuman things they did to you. You cant help but somehow feel glad that they got served.

I mean, I can forgive but HONESTLY speaking I cannot forget. Sometimes it creeps me out that I'm feeling this way. Frankly speaking, everybody feels the same way that I do at some point of their life. Who doesn't want a payback ? Right?.

I just hope that God or Vishnu would update his system and keep up with technology and make karma digital. hehehehe. That way I dont have to wait for weeks or months for this things to happen. Bad things really happen to bad people.

I'm just wondering... would I get served to because for hoping karma would avenge me. (that's at the back of my mind of course).

(Sigh)... I guess I'll just have to wait till my karma arrives. hehehe.

Almost Happy

Yippee! New year! A new start for everybody. Everybody has a clean slate.This is my first blog this year. And I for one wants to start this year of a tiger with a roar. Actually I started a little early in cleaning up my act way back weeks ago. I believe I was in the almost happy state on my god-damned-pathetic-life.

But then again just my luck , I somehow ended up messing my life all over again. And the sad part is I got no one to blame but myself. My life is beyond idiotic. I kept on asking myself " why am I finding myself in this kind of situations anyway.

I'm near the state of happiness . All those problems that I blogged about before somehow got fixed. (lucky me) hehehe. Only to find out that I'd be facing problems much worst than before. (bummer)

I think last year I'm cursed. Every time I know I'm going to be happy and I let my guard down that's when this life gets behind me and shoves me to the dirt. So, I came up with a new years resolution. I'll just play it cool this year, that way I wont let my guard down. And from now on I'm gonna be skeptic about signs of happiness. I'll see it as the calmness before the storm. That way, maybe... Maybe I can be truly happy.

Then I wont have to settle for ALMOST HAPPY any more.